should i tell my sister i dropped outof college?

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ok here’s the whole story…. im in final year of my degree and i tried to study everyday but between one and another i just couldnt do it. i used to great at studying and enjoyed my course and got As and B+. there were alot of reasons why i couldnt study, mainly ive lost confidence in myself because i was diagnosed with schizophrenia and also im on meds which arent great. i just dont have the same mental clarity or stamina i used to have. and also ive got into very bad habits. ie watching tv and not excercising. i went to counsellor in my college and she said i was going to give myself burn out and that i should accept that i dont have stamina because i had 2 whoppingnervous brakedowns included psychotic episodes in the last 2 years. she suggested i take a year out and build my stamina up and she reckoned if i did that i would regain my enthuasism and stamina for course. also ther was the fact that if i didnt do well in these exams i would forever ruin my chancesof getting into postgrad i wanted. because you cant repeat final year in my college.i felt like a bit of a failure and still do but i decided to take a year out.
my problem now is ihavent told my sister and here’s why…. she is a super studier. shes in a grind school and goes to school from 9-6 and then does 5 hours stuy when she comes home, and this is despite her having chronic fatique syndrome and getting every illness under the sun. this term alone she had to get 2 operations for ovarian cysts and one on her scalp. also she got 2 really bad kidney infections and gotachest infection with a very high fever. the doctor even told her to go home to bed, but she went in and did her xmas exams anyway. she just never gives up. so basically shes great, and im a waster. so i decided i couldnt possibly tell what ihad done and am now pretending im doing my exams. but the lying is getting really hard. she even rang me tonite because she was having a mental block and wanted to knowihow i got through mine( I didnt). so should i tell the truth? i really cant stand the thought of her thinking im a loser and a quiter.

sorry this is such a long question!!!